life...

just threw me another curve...an old bff from like 1st grade got in contact w/ me...this was b4 i went to pre 1st so its kind of weird...i havent gotten the courage up to tell her that im still in high school...she moved b4 it all happened so she has no idea..she thinks im in college n shes tellin me about all the old ppl i used to hang out with...its just weird idk why but it is...i never thought id have to deal wit my past..esp that part of it...but its a good thing she got back in contact wit me...we had some good times when we were little...at least wat i can remember of it n its not much...it turns out shes up in bensalem a lot bc of her bf n her bf is another old classmate of mine...so yeah...n she goes to bucks n is thinkin of transferin to holy family...but at least i get to get to no her again...but again its weird...i never thought id have to tell them that i got held back in a way...i just thought id mever have to face it n deal wit it...im fine tellin others now in the grade that im in that i had to go to pre 1st but its harder to tell her....i feel stupid bc im still in high school...but if i never went to pre 1st i would never have met the ppl i have in my life today...

it all feels like a dream....

i have to admit the last week was insane with all the pit practices n work...but im kind of sad its all over which i never thought i would say...but last night had a lot of firsts....me getting reconginized in from of an audience for being a senior...first time double dating....1st time crying bc of katie s n her letter she wrote me bc of being "the big guy on campus"....n some 1st with greg at dinner n in the car....also with val lol....being sooo hyper bc of monster....it all feels like a dream....

i am dipping my toe into the waters of no return....

well i got my fabric for my dress yesterday and i picked out a sketch that i like n im in love with it...i got my crown thing today too so im gettin there....

:-(

no school today bc of a sonw day....this means an extra day at the high school so instead of graduating on the 11th now its ganna be the 12th :-(

EXCITING NEWS!!!

proms coming along good....just got 3 good phone calls today....cristina p has a date, we have a shore place only $200 per person, n i got good dress news from my bro...going to see it sat. and we;re goin fabric shopping and all....me and val have our plans set for what we want to do down there we're basically going to live on the beach and become black lol

so i realized that that week of prom i wont be home for like 2 weeks bc before prom i go on sr trip and thats 5 days 4 nights, i think, then 2 days later is prom and after prom im stayin over katie b's house and then we leave for the shore the next morning and i wont be coming home from the shore til sometime that monday...so ill have 3 days down the shore....its ganna be sooo hot...im sooo stoked i cant wait....time to party it up!!!

WOW

is the one word to describe the last couple of days and to the end of a long weekend.....between lookin for a limo for prom and gettin shit from everyone bc i need the $$ for it so we have the limo bus for the prom, talkin about whats ganna go on at the shore afterwards, figuring out whos all goin where and if they can go, my converstaions that ive been havin with val lol, oh yeah and my friend Chrissy Coder's b/f...he got some girl pregnant supposedly before they ever met so i heard about that the whole entire weekend (more like every freakin minute)...i got woke up 5 am bc of that stupid phone call...........oh n sr cut day was a success...734 ppl were absent from school friday so there was no work to make up which is sweet....but wow about everything especially me and vals convos (eventho we already have interesting convos but these make the top of them)....

Sr. Cut Weekend

It was insane....i first started the day off going to work....which i didnt think was a good idea but it turned out good....i love my new job and im totally happy that i no longer work at Auntie Annes....i dont even wanna say that name anymore lol....but Friday 8 of us decided to hang out which was kool....we went to applebees and they said it was my bday of course, but it didnt bother me much bc i got a free desert..but the waiter was flurtin with us hardcore it was kind of funny....after we ate we went to see definatly, maybe which was sooo cute, you should see it it was amazing....then we went to two different malls just to go n we ended up goin to Nifty 50s for milkshakes and we again got free deserts bc we said it was Katie B.'s bday...it was really fun i enjoyed myself

Then yesterday i hung out with greg which i havent done since my party i had over the summer. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be....at least i didnt get that sick feelin i used to get everytime i saw or hung out with him....but he grew out his hair and honestly he doesnt look that bad...but we didnt do anything...we were ganna go to the movies but the line was too long so we ended up driving to neshaminy mall and sittin on a bench....then when the mall closed (yea we stayed on the bench for awhile) we ended up driving back to my place and talked in his car for awhile about random things.....we can talk about anything at all and it not get ackward which is kind of kool...but then he asked me what my darkest secret was and it kind of caught me off guard....i have plenty of them but the one that came to my mind was the top one...and i refused to tell him.....but it got me thinkin...only one person nos it and im not ready to tell everyone yet bc im not too sure about lettin everyone no just yet....when the time is right and im 100% sure i wanna let ppl no about it ill tell everyone....but it really got me thinking if thats what i really want in life and part of me says yes bc thats what makes me happy....

but me and val were talkin about prom and going to the shore afterwards and im kind of scared bc of what greg wants bc i let it slip when i was hanging out with him that i was ganna get some action...but i didnt mean it like he thought bc hes not ganna be the other one getting the action with me lol.....but i no one thing....when im down there im ganna go wild with val bc she said she would and i was tellin her that were ganna go streakin and im ganna get her trashed and shes down for it all....well just have to see about it tho lol...im sooo stoked about prom....itll be sooo funn i cant wait...i just hope mistakes dont happen and whatever does happen i hope it doesnt get weird....i need someone to party with that doesnt care what happens and it wont be ackward to hang with them afterwards....val said shes my girl..well see tho lol bc she doesnt no what to expect when shes hangs out with me....she told me shes afraid to drink with me bc she knows that shes ganna get wasted...itll be funn tho lol